I found a job and change once again…

I am back…but not in an old life, it’s kind of new. But it’s still up north. New city, new job, new people. And it’s okay, it’s new, it’s different, but it’s okay. I know “okay” sounds not like wow, not like mindblowing, not like whooohoo. It was like wow, mindblowing, whooohoo the first weeks….and then there was this hole, this reality which caught me, which made me negate everything lasted around four days. And it kind of ended with my dearest friend from Iceland saying “Maria, remember, it was never easy, even not here. You had also struggles here. And we lived a normal life in the end, with working, being tired of work and so on.” Thanks to her I realised she is right. Big love for those friends who put you back where you should be. In reality. Since then reality is my friend again and I am okay. And okay is good. Cause I like it here, I like the new city, I love to be closer to my love, to discover great new places in his and my city, to be close to an old and beloved friend again, to live with cool flatmates, to enjoy a real summer with biking home in the middle of the night in a shirt and shorts, to bike with my old bike from childhood, to eat fresh fruits and greens from the farmers markets, to grow our own fruits and greens at the balcony, to still have Iceland in my head almost every day (as I work for an Iceland travel agency planning trips for germans), to have great and nice collagues, to have a good and okay life.

I learned in the past years, that it does not depend where you are, it depends on you, what you do out of situations, places, your life in general. But I have to remind myself on that every now and then. So, for now it’s okay to be here, to live this life. Hello there, I am still here.


P.S. And yes, I do miss Iceland a lot!

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good souls…



As I turn to you and I say

Thank goodness for the good souls
That make life better
As I turn to you and I say
If it wasn’t for the good souls
Life would not matter.
(Starsailor – good souls)

As I passed a difficult time, caused by the loss of daylight and some big rocks on my way, I see a light in the sky. It’s called sun. And it feels good to feel the days getting longer, the people nicer, this island more welcoming even if there are still snowstorms and icy temperatures. Maybe there are more reasons than just the longer days and the less darkness. I decided to punch this winter depressing mood in the face with action, with meeting new people, with fun. Not always easy when you feel like staying home but in the end you are a happy person when you come home after a nice roadtrip with people which you soon see as new friends. And suddenly you feel alive again, you start to communicate with your friends at home, with strangers, with your real family, with the chosen one in the westfjords, with old schoolfriends. And you see that all of this is worth to step closer, to stay here in that place.

This goes out to the good souls, to  my (music) friends in Hamburg (yay, in less than two months there will be Husum Harbour), to the closest ones with whom I can share fears, thoughts, happiness, to my family who are happy when I am happy, to my visitors who will come in april, may, june, july and august and whom I can show why I can’t come back and have to travel further. This goes out to the people I never met in real life, but with whom I already had interesting conversations about living, loving and about inspiration. And to the people I already met but who are even more far away than my homecountry, the people I met at my journeys or at their journeys, this people are sometimes as close as they would live next to me. A good heart knows no distance.

I need all of you, I need your inspiration, your spirit, your thoughts, your laughter, your ideas, your feelings. Thanks for that!

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